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Aug. 3rd, 2005 09:52 pmMany thanks to everyone for your messages of support. I don't know if I will be able to answer them all, but they are all appreciated.
Kip and I will be flying out to Portland for the memorial service, and staying about a week to help Dad clean Mom's stuff out of the house, then driving Mom's car back home, since Dad doesn't want two cars. It will be good to see my dad and my brother again.
I am gradually getting a little better. I was supposed to still have vacation for a while, but the boss asked me to come back to work early, as Nature did not accept our paper and he wants help revising it for submission to another journal. I've been going in for about four hours a day or so--I don't feel like pushing myself and nobody at work seems to feel like pushing me.
People have been very nice. I don't know how many people have said "call me if there's anything I can do." Of course, I'm not sure how many of those people I'm going to have to call before I find someone who can take us to the airport at 4:00am :-7
I keep having these odd impulses. I'd be making a lot of expensive purchases right now because I don't feel like denying myself anything, except that I have no follow-through. I see something cool, think "Oh maybe I want that" and then a breath later "it's not worth the bother" or "it won't make anything better." I've been reading a lot of books, because reading takes me out of myself and lets me forget for a while. And renting kid's movies, like "The Aristocats" and "Lady and the Tramp"--because I know nothing bad will happen in them.
Kip and I will be flying out to Portland for the memorial service, and staying about a week to help Dad clean Mom's stuff out of the house, then driving Mom's car back home, since Dad doesn't want two cars. It will be good to see my dad and my brother again.
I am gradually getting a little better. I was supposed to still have vacation for a while, but the boss asked me to come back to work early, as Nature did not accept our paper and he wants help revising it for submission to another journal. I've been going in for about four hours a day or so--I don't feel like pushing myself and nobody at work seems to feel like pushing me.
People have been very nice. I don't know how many people have said "call me if there's anything I can do." Of course, I'm not sure how many of those people I'm going to have to call before I find someone who can take us to the airport at 4:00am :-7
I keep having these odd impulses. I'd be making a lot of expensive purchases right now because I don't feel like denying myself anything, except that I have no follow-through. I see something cool, think "Oh maybe I want that" and then a breath later "it's not worth the bother" or "it won't make anything better." I've been reading a lot of books, because reading takes me out of myself and lets me forget for a while. And renting kid's movies, like "The Aristocats" and "Lady and the Tramp"--because I know nothing bad will happen in them.
